bad at decisions

well, the fact that i completely suck at taking control of my own life and making decisions is finally coming back to haunt me.

so- somehow, my parents got inside my head enough to convince me to do exactly what they wanted me to do, which was to get a more secure, better paying, less political, less what i actually want to do, job in new york, in a secure (in terms of job security) place like a hospital....

so somehow, bc of the fact that i had graduated and am living at home, i became so desperate that i started following these leads that they wanted me to follow- and now i have been offered a job at sloan-kettering doing something that is remotely interesting/relevant to what i want to do, but there are so many other jobs, in other cities, that i would much rather have --and the HR woman at SK is being a bitch and won't give me extra time to decide, really because they need to know bc the job would start in july--so they have to hire someone mas ahora.


so i really don't know what to do and i have to decide by like mon or tues---someone help! what should i do???

p.s. sorry i haven't posted in a while- since then, i graduated and have been living at home where a) there's nothign to write about except how long island sucks and b)the internet is slower than driving behind a white bell driving school drivers ed car.

boo. also yay. graduating's a bit of a mixed bag i guess. i hate that expression. i also hate having to go to the public library to go online, bourgeouise-nik that i am.

who's up for living in queens with me? bc i'm only taking the job under the condition that i don't live at home, and i don't think i'll be able to afford anywhere else besides queens (plus it would be a cool place to live, i think).