my love/hate relationship with weekends

i think my love/hate relationship with weekends much resembles my love/hate relationship with time.

actually...i think i just have a hate relationship with time- except that i love that i can do certain very specific things in very short amounts of time. but other than that...ya

i think it's time for another one of my "reasons why i suck" posts or rather, "why i'm letting everyone down, including myself" posts.

if i'm alone, i never get anything done, but if there are people around i never get anythign done either. if there's no IMMEDIATE (and i mean immediate) deadline, i think i have to wake up and immediately go to a place where there are other peop;le, just not people that i know and really want to talk to....i keep trying to change my life and it never works. i supose i could try again from here on...

i have a problem.